Life goes on the way we play

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 09:19:32 GMT

I"M HYPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cari Dale

Stupid Myspace...

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 07:12:52 GMT

that really pisses me off...i got grounded from my life...i will find a way to leave....i'm not staying here...fuck them...I'd sooner get kicked out then let them drive me insane, which is what there are going to end up doing my trying to ground me...I realize that it is totally my fault that i'm grounded, but driving me insane is not the way to keep me under control...taking away the phone is going to drive me crazy, i have to talk to people, it is the only contact that i have with the outside world...i will be leaving on tuesday whether or not they like it...i don't really give a rats ass...i'm not staying here...nope, no way...
And on top of that my other source of human contact is not running right know...fucking myspace...that just doesn't really improve my mood...i want to talk to dave so bad...dammit...this pisses me off so bad, i'll be surprised if i sleep tonight...
cari dale

long days...

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 16:26:43 GMT

i have the strangest feeling that today is going to be a very long day...i have to take dave back his shirt today, and it'll be the first time i've seen him since before he broke up with me...i don't know on whether to be excited or scared...i'm actually both, 'cuz he's still hitting on me all the fucking time...it's actually really cute...but don't no one tell him i said that...
Love always,
Cari Dale

I'm excited...

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 17:21:43 GMT

I"m so excited....Taleina shut her fat mouth...
w00t...Taleina is dumb...
It's actually quite funny to me...I guess you're "sister" is no longer your's,huh, Taleina...
Yes, Judith is my sister, and will always be my sister. So, You can fuck off...
Besides, you weren't a very good sister. You really weren't. Always it was you, you, you. Now it's Ronnie, Ronnie, Ronnie...
Well, good job dumbass, you just lost two friends that you would've been better off keeping...
w00t....we're smart aren't we....
well, that's it...[
Cari Dale

no more anonymous...

Tue, 30 May 2006 19:53:59 GMT

Sidewinder Lyrics
I slide through the wasteland that's my world
My hunger takes your life, preyed on to keep me alive, yeah
Mercy's all that you need, mercy's empty in me

Can't you feel the poison rising out of the morning and clear through the night
You can feel my strength destroy you straight to the heart from the venomous bite

That's right I shed my skin tonight but my fangs are hard to hide
And you know that you're going to die, yeah
Mercy's all that you need, mercy's empty to me

Can't you feel the poison rising out of the morning and clear through the night
You can feel my strength destroy you straight to the heart from the venomous bite
I can't regret, can't escape decisions made for me, no control
Fire that burns and never dies, wrapped around I'll bury my fangs inside

Making my way through the night you're still in my sight
You're runnin' away cause you know you can't hide
My instincts are cold blooded hate; to you I'm the bearer of fate
Wrong place and now the wrong time, now terror is all that you'll find

Can't you feel the poison rising straight to the heart of the venomous bite
Can't you feel the poison rising out of the morning and clear through the night
You can feel my strength destroy you straight to the heart from the venomous bite
I can't regret, can't escape decisions made for me, no control
Fire that burns and never dies, wrapped around I'll bury my fangs inside

Stay inside tonight - you're out there all alone
Vanish from my sites - venomous control
You won't make it right - my appetite has grown
Lost the final fight - no love will be shown

anonymous shit is fucking retarded...damn, people grow up...i'm a freshman in highschool...not a middleschooler...if you're gonna be pissed at me, then grow balls and tell me who you are and get over yourself...don't post shit about me and my family on the internet just to piss me off...fucking hell...you say that you hope that i find out who you are, well how am i supposed to do that when you're ANONYMOUS...hello, dumbass...fucking hell...

Me...

Mon, 22 May 2006 19:19:17 GMT

Honestly i fucking hate school with a passion...but that's not the point...i'm so bored, hyper...and all that other good shit...and i'm waiting for my boyfriend to get the balls to come and see me....but that...is...none...of...your...business...
love always,
cari dale

Wed, 17 May 2006 19:34:45 GMT

Angel Lyrics
Shooby dooby dooby doo woi
Shooby doo Oh
Shooby doo dooby doo boi oi

Yeah, ah Girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Girl, you're my friend when I'm in need, lady

Life is one big party when you're still young
But who's gonna have your back when it's all done
It's all good when you're little, you have pure fun
Can't be a fool, son, what about the long run
Looking back Shorty always mention
Said me not giving her much attention
She was there through my incarceration
I wanna show the nation my appreciation

Girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Girl, you're my friend when I'm in need, lady

You're a queen and so you should be treated
Though you never get the lovin' that you needed
Could have left, but I called and you heeded
Begged and I pleaded, mission completed
Mama said that I and I dissed the program
Not the type to mess around with her emotion
But the feeling that I have for you is so strong
Been together so long and this could never be wrong

Girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Girl, you're my friend when I'm in need, lady

Uh, uh Girl, in spite of my behavior, said I'm your savior
(You must be sent from up above)
And you appear to me so tender, say girl I surrender
(Thanks for giving me your love)
Girl, in spite of my behavior, well, you are my savior
(You must be sent from up above)
And you appear to me so tender, well, girl I surrender
(Said thanks for giving me your love)

Now life is one big party when you're still young
And who's gonna have your back when it's all done
It's all good when you're little, you have pure fun
Can't be a fool, son, what about the long run
Looking back Shorty always mention
Said me not giving her much attention
She was there through my incarceration
I wanna show the nation my appreciation

Girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Girl, you're my friend when I'm in need, lady
Girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Girl, you're my friend when I'm in need, lady

Does he remember?? Or does he chooose to forget...

Quotes...Lyrics...Poem

Tue, 16 May 2006 19:25:50 GMT

"Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need..."

"Down on her knees, she wept on the floor - this hopeless life she wanted no more
Dead in her mind and cold to the bone - she opened her eyes and saw she was alone..."

Running Blind Lyrics
Can’t find the answers
I’ve been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning
Promises have been turned to lies
Can’t even be honest inside
Now I’m running backward
Watching my life wave me goodbye

Running blind
I’m running blind
Somebody help me see I’m running blind

Searching for nothing
Wondering if I’ll change
I’m trying everything
But everything still stays the same
I thought if I showed you I could fly
Wouldn’t need anyone by my side
Now I’m running backward
With broken wings I know I’ll die

Running blind
I’m running blind
Somebody help me see I’m running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind

I can’t find the answers
I’ve been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning
I’m running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind

OKay, so the quotes are from Seether songs...and the song is done by Godsmack...
cari

'kay...so i officially hate all men...

Thu, 11 May 2006 19:58:59 GMT

well, no not really, i don't hate all men...just most of them...and especially jamie...he keeps being an asshole to me...what did i do to him???well, that's just a waste of my time...
cari dale

FUCK IT ALL...

Wed, 10 May 2006 19:29:40 GMT

I give up...seriously...i mean shit the man won't fucking talk to me, it's pretty bad when i end up talking to my friend who is 3,000 miles away, and three hours ahead of me, instead of talking to my boyfriend...
well fuck him then...
Cari Dale

I hate school..

Tue, 09 May 2006 19:27:21 GMT

i'm seriously gonna stop coming to school, just so that i don't have to listen to the drama that goes on...it's such a waste of time...and it's not like i'm really learning anything...i mean seriously...
WASTE OF TIME....It's almost enough to make me cry...goddamn it pisses me off....I'm still debating on how i am going to kill everyone that is on my list...so many people how to kill them all and get a way with it...FUCK IT ALL...all i hear when i come to school is drama, drama, drama, and just more fucking drama...and all it does is piss me off kinda like right now....can you tell that i am just a little bit pissed off...really can you tell...'cuz if you can't then you're fucking STUPID...
Fucking hate school...

More lyrics just 'cuz i can...
Hollow Lyrics
One more step and I could fall away
If it happened would it matter?
And I can't tell if I should go or stay
Same old picture feel so hollow
How can anybody know what's best for me?
Another page I turn in shame
And my decisions brought me to my knees
I needed someone to blame

I feel so hollow
I feel so hollow
Time to do what's best for me I believe I can change

Once upon a time in broken dreams
Reflection's that I can't face
So hold your breath and make a wish for me
Take me to a better place
Time always seems to be passing by
It never waits for me
If I could do it all one more time
I wouldn't change a thing

I feel so hollow (feel so hollow)
I feel so hollow (feel so hollow)
I feel so hollow (feel so hollow)
I feel so hollow (feel so hollow)
Time to do what's best for me I believe I can change

Cari Dale

Hmm...

Thu, 04 May 2006 20:17:04 GMT

so when do i think he will actually be back???probably next monday...but i'll drop in sometime and let everyone know...if you're not already my friend on myspace then my myspcae account is wicked kitty...w00t...
anyways, so life is fucking boring right know...i have 8 min. til class is over then i have to go to pe...yay, i'm so looking forward to it...let me tell you...fucking hate school...funny thing is that's the only thing about school that i really hate...is physical education...i just don't understand why it's a mandatory class...can someone explain to me why it's a mandatory class...not just everyone is going to be a fitness freak when they grow up...so, my question is why is gym a mandatory class in highschool...it's true that i only have to take two trimesters of p.e. but i still hate it...fucking son of a bitch...
Hmm...so i fucking hate being in school, i am going to one day burn this school to the ground...actually i change my mind, i am going to blow the fucking town up...i hate it...if anyone has any objections, then don't bother leaving them here, 'cuz i don't care and i'm going to blow it up anyways, get it, got it, good...
I always knew that you would see things my way...i am god after all....w00t....
So that's really all i have to say...
cari dale

Thu, 04 May 2006 19:38:10 GMT

nobody really reads these but it's still giving me something do to while i sit here and stare at my computer...w00t...no, not really...
here's lyrics for you...

Voodoo Too Lyrics
(I'm not the one who's so far away)
(I'm not the one who's so far away)

Open your eyes, a chill passes you by
A premonition coming strong
Rich with desire, superstition in disguise
Draws me into where I belong

Have you ever wondered why in a dream you can touch a fallen sky?
Fly to the heavens that watch over you, telling me it's a voodoo
Voodoo too

In, still the body, so warm with every breath
Dance to a vision so seductive
Rain down upon me, it cleanses me with every drip
A send you promised for the nourishment that I've been gifted

Have you ever wondered why in a dream you can touch a fallen sky?
Fly to the heavens that watch over you, telling me it's a voodoo
Have you ever wondered why in a dream you can touch a fallen sky?
Fly to the heavens that watch over you, telling me it's a voodoo
Voodoo too

Voodoo too, it's all voodoo too

Have you ever wondered why in a dream you can touch a fallen sky?
Fly to the heavens that watch over you, telling me it's a voodoo
Have you ever wondered why in a dream you can touch a fallen sky?
Fly to the heavens that watch over you, telling me it's a voodoo
Voodoo too

It's just voodoo too, it's all voodoo too, it's just what you do

Can anyone guess who this is???

hmm...i hate school

Wed, 03 May 2006 20:14:12 GMT

goddamn it, i hate school, i hate it...i hate it...i hate it...(check it out i can still be a 5 year old) w00t...
anyways,
hopefully my boyfriend will be back soon...i need to call him when i get home...considering i don't know when he's going to be back, and that kinda sorta pisses me off..damn him...
moving on to lesser matters,
it's amazing that i can still keep my brain straight with all the shit that i need to get done...I need to go talk to Ms. Nelson, get a job, get back on the ohp...get my meds, get into therapy...move out of molalla...so much shit...so much shit...damn it all...
fuckers...
cari dale

w00t i remember how to update...

Tue, 02 May 2006 21:10:57 GMT

check that shit out...i remember how to update...go me...go me...
i win...so whats up ppl. notta lot here...just bored as hell..go me again...
damn i never realized how good i am...lol
Anyways, I'm hopefully going to be getting the fuck out of molalla here pretty soon...which makes me unbelieveably happy...w00t..
cari dale

wow i'm such a little slut

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 06:45:13 GMT

so everybody, cari has become a sex fiend, and i freely admit it, moving to the other more important things...hmm...i'm bored as hell nothing to do but sit here and listen to zhen and judi talk about pot it's quite humorous..well gotta go
love always,
cari dale

So fucking hate...

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 00:11:23 GMT

I fucking hate being grounded...but i guess it's for my own stupidity....i was stupid enough to think i could get away with something that i couldn't get away with...goddamn it...oh well, they can't take me away from dave...no matter how hard they try....he is my boyfriend and i love him very much....So fuck them all....
Back to the other things...
Judith: Fuck Taleina...She is just trying to get you to be her friend again because she needs one who didn't treat her like shit...it's her fault...
You know where to find me if you need me...

Um...everyone else...
you guys suck ass...no one ever comments on me...to hell

Cari has returned...And still bored as hell

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 22:16:06 GMT

Yep, it's me again...it's amazing that i can just leave this place for like i dunno, a couple of weeks and no one worries about me...but i guess you could say that it makes me happy at the same time to know that people think that i can take care of myself...thank you guys for having the knowledge to let me know...Jack asses...jesus i swear half of you only talk to me on the phone...it would be nice to hear from you even if i talk to you on the phone...damn i didn't sign up for this just so i could rant and rave about it...anyways,
so we finally figured out when i am going to my moms...i'm leaving December 18 and returning on December 31st...Yeah, Nick is really pissed that he won't get to see me on christmas...but then again wait no one really will, except for those people that finally realized that i do exist...fucking pricks...oh well...i really have typed out alot today haven't i...that's not natural for me...I'm watching my Friend Michael Bonn mess around on paint...it's fucking hilarious...
well gotta go,
got other things to update...
Love Always,
Cari Dale

um...it's me...

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 06:34:59 GMT

so i have returned again...yeah...it is so the day before halloween...and hell yeah i am so happy with my life right now...my boyfriend is like the male counterpart of me...it's fucking awesome...and then again my mother is drunk and rambling again...i think that i am going to cry;-)
lol...
love always,
cari dale

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 05:18:25 GMT

well, the almighty cari has returned from the virtual grave..what now bitches, what now...
anyways, gotta go help my boyfriend with something..
love always,
cari dale

what have i done so damn wrong???

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 20:23:49 GMT

i was so happy with you,
but i guess i fucked up,
I thought that you would be true,
but now we're through,

what have i done so damn wrong,
like i sang the wrong song,
i will still wait for you,
i have nothing better to do,

i fucked it up,
like i always do,
my happiness flies through the door,
and i'm blind, crawling on all fours,

i'll be good,
i promise,
but will you come back,
fuck it, it's over...

kay, for all you who don't know i am telling you now, brooks and i are over for now, he said he wants me to live my life a little bit more,but that he still loves me with all of his heart...yeah, okay...what the hell does that mean???
I still love him though...
Love always,
Cari Dale

fill it out you know you want to...

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 21:46:40 GMT

What Would You do if...
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:

What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Friends:
Decisions:

Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
makeout with me:
hold me in times of need:
Have Sex with me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Date me:
Rape me:
Beat me up:

am i..
- am i cute?
- am i crazy?
- am i lovable?
- am i funny?
- am i annoying?
- am i psycho?
- am i daring?
- am i a good person?

would you..
- would you hug me?
- would you miss me if i was gone?
- would you kiss me?
- would you make out with me?
- would you listen to my problems?
- would you be a good friend?
- would you eat my food if I wasnt looking?

would you ever..
- would you ever go out with me?
- would you ever marry me if you could?
- would you ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up?
- would you ever snuggle with me?

if you could..
- if you could give me a new name, it would be?
- if you could do one thing with me, it would be?
- if you could give me a piece of advice, it would be?
- if you could kidnap me for a day, where would we go?

just a few questions..
- what do you love about me?
- what do you hate about me?
- what is my best quality?
- if you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
- what is your honest opinion about me?
- what would you do if i sang out of tune?
- what song reminds you of me?
- do i remind you of any characters on tv?
- have you ever had a dream about me?
- do you think i'm a virgin?
- if you just met me, how old would you guess i am?
- if you could give me anything, what would it be?
- if you could promise me anything, what would it be?

personal..
- if you could describe me in one word, what would that word be?
- when we first met, what were your thoughts?
- if you had to describe to someone who i am and what i am like, what would you tell them?
- what are my faults?
- what are my strengths?
- do you wish we were closer?
- why aren't we closer?

brooks' is so weird...

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 04:18:11 GMT

okay, so i am so bored...drinking coors light...and yes that's me drinking a beer...shoot me what am i gonna do???
well gotta go,
love always,
cari dale

war of the worlds

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 18:30:15 GMT

okay, so we didn't go see the wedding crashers...we went and saw war of the worlds, which wasn't that bad it was kinda corny in the end...and they so overplayed the special effects but it had a good story to it...judith an taleina were stoned so they kept fucking around during the beginning of the movie so i kept yelling at them and then brooks and i kinda decided that if they got kicked out of the theater it was there problem...so we just kinda gave up...
well that's about all,
love always,
cari dale

bored once again getting ready for the movies...

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 21:54:26 GMT

so i'm going to the movies i think we're going to go see the wedding crashers...i don't really know if i want to go see it...i wanted to see the devil's rejects but it's not playing at hilltop theater yet so i have to wait..
damn it...
well,
love to all,
cari dale